Sunday, April 4, 2010

Doing It On Your Own

I was sitting here today, thinking back of when I was a little girl. Well, I was about 17 actually. And I was sitting at the dinning room table across from my mom. 

The occasion was that my mom had my dad thrown in jail the night before. And she would be leaving soon to go pick him up.

I asked my mom why she always did that. Have him removed just to go pick him up and bail him out the next day.  None of her answers stuck with me until this time. She replied that she could not make it on her own without him. Something was said about giving up all the good opportunities to be there and work with my dad in the same business. And that was what she was left with. And now she could not make it without him.

I remember explaining how I was willing to help out. At that time, I was still going to school but I was also working at the corner doughnut shop. And I would help out.  Of course, like everything else, it was just pushed aside and she went along and bailed him out and life went on just as it always did. 

I had forgotten about that instance until today. And I can say that was probably a life changing moment for me and yet, I did not even know it. I did not know it until right now. 

I think maybe that's why I am so set in doing things on my own. To prove that you DON'T need anyone else to make it... Or to get by...That you DON'T need to settle. 

Realizing this little bit of info about myself does a couple different things. I know that I am  a confident person and I rely on myself and no man. But I am also stubborn. Purposely trying to do things on my own. And that is what I need to watch out for. 

I am nothing like my mom. But I developed that core value of NOT relying or depending on a man at a very young age. And here it is almost 25 years later and I am still trying to prove it. I did not know where that thought or value came from until today. What a "Wow" moment.  Now to see what I can do to ease up on myself a little.  :)


Ben10 Games said...

I've seen just about every episode, and the scenario you describe above happened once on the Hooters show, and maybe one other time. And there have been a couple of bad employees who have been highlighted. But in general, there is no outing of bad managers. In fact, last night's epi was so lame because the real CEO couldn't do the undercover thing because he'd be recognized, so he sent one of his minions whose heart was clearly not in the game. The whole epi was weak and boring.

Cindy said...

I'm not sure if Ben10 meant to reply to a different blog. Your reply does not seem to match what I posted about. But I posted your comment as well.